segeln. ruhe. zwang

"all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go."

that's not exactly true=P. everything feels, yes surreal. somehow i feel like i'm not involved in all this, like an outsider watching the action. or maybe i'm just not used to being the one to leave. it hasn't hit me obviously.

came close though. twice today. once with em (i thought you were kidding about being bad at goodbyes. but no, woosh.), and the second time with jennie. that was hard.
i love you emily, don't miss me, i'll be back before you realise it. at least one thing good about time passing faster and faster eh?
and hon and i rushed off to tuas naval base after lunch at nus with all the med pple (so many many..many) and whoever else available at nus, to send jennie off. we toured the ship a bit, rss perseverance. interesting, big. but then they were called up to the ship and... well. ouch. their salutes were cute, and the beret/hat waving even more so. saw shane too. they'll be sailing for 3 weeks. and pple wondering why jen and i behaved so exaggeratedly. you wouldn't know.
was considering bringing some sorta soft toy, but went through my collection and thought none of them had enough significance. now i have it! thank you jennie. i will really miss you. and this is bad because i know you'll be very busy and i'll be very far away. (when she gave me her present for me it was just ouch.. i had that feeling again, where it was difficult to breathe, like something constricting my ribcage (i'm so not poetical, but seriously, that's what it feels like), that feeling i've not had for a long time.) but yeah, like your gift said so. we'll always be in each other's lives.

and then i met up with teck tee. hell of a rush. it was good to see him.

and then rushed home.. qq xiz cai bena came over for dinner. took photos. then sang and hk came over at 3am. (just now... they walked from nus. wow. you're not sleeping on My mattress!!=P)

starting to feel excited. will be leaving for the airport in 2 hours time. go spend some time talking to sang bena and hk now!

thank you all my friends! your generosity and well wishes flatter me so. all the best!

next report from champaign!

p.s. jin: sorry i've neglected you for so long! if it's any consolation, you're the only i'm going Towards!

posted by sunny @ 15:29