been a long time. term one's gonna be over soon, in a week's time. sigh. feel the same again....cooped up and irritable...i wonder if everything's just an illusion..some things seem too good to be true. maybe sereine was right. i think it doesn't matter.. it doesn't bother me when i'm around pple who see things similar to me, but i guess if i'm alone i'd feel the same way too, and things'll begin to matter.
hmm. let's see what has happened so far. release of results..a disappointment to most people. i can stay, what else can i say.
was quite bothered about pingpong...but it's beginning to look better too. i was contemplating dropping but i think i'll just wait till the matches are over.
i thought being truthful/blunt was good. but i guess it isn't. i guess you still need to build up confidence/trust based on superficiality.
maybe it's just the weather. it's been so stuffy...can't believe it. but i think one good thing about is that you don't really realise how fast time flies. time's just "oh man it's already march".
maybe some things aren't worth pondering too much over, while other things are. so silly. sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi fu. or am i just giving too many d**ns.
other than that..life's good, i like it. lectures during which you can sleep or alternatively chat with pple on either side and then go oh damn what's he saying, nvm i'll just go home and read it up (and never get that done). tutorials, take 10 mins to sit down, another 10 mins to settle down, 20 mins to go through 3 qtns and 10 mins to reach the next lecture. hey i sound bitter but i really love it=). actually rj lectures are exactly what i imagined them to be, even the colour of the wooden panels by the side. or maybe i've seen the lecture theatres before i came? seems deja vu-ish.
astro on friday night, they dismissed everyone after the presentation because the weather "was bad" but when we went out it was quite clear..so we sprawled on top of the high jump mat and just....sprawled. grace and i had a competition to see who could jump furthest into the mat...but after we did that we realised it was rather. damp from the drizzle in the afternoon. oh well. felt really good. and then vampire I came out and was chatting with us. he told us some more stories about whichever constellations. hmm. like i said, it's always therapeutic. too bad some pple get pretty disappointed (esp on their first tries) thinking there's only boring presentations. feel rather bad about that too.
would really like to go for the tioman trip...but i think, better not.
i've always dreamt of boarding a plane alone with as few pieces of luggage as possible. but i never knew it could come true so soon. =)))))) way cool.
speaking of rain, i was caught in school yesterday for 2.5h after training, because of rain. i was sitting in the canteen with yilan, it was (already considered) pouring, when suddenly this strong gust of wind just blew across the field through the canteen and out the other side. i couldn't see anything, it was just a sheet of white. =) and then my bottle (which i just filled up) was blown over, a tin tray from one of the stalls flew, the recycle bin slid cross the canteen. when i came out of school i saw a rat running towards me, run past me, scurry along on the grass, didnt' jump into the drain but instead carried on.......(it was quite cute.) i saw two trees struck by lightning, their branches blocking the path. and i saw a dead rat which was rather...grossly mutilated under the wheel of the bus at the terminal...
I am cyclothymic.
Guten tag.
posted by sunny @ 03:18
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