it's no good to be left alone. your mind sorta wanders and it's so easy to slip..into nothing good.
what do i do? nothing?
wish i hadn't done that. stupid stupid.. it probably be .. different if i hadn't.
week's worth of holidays isn't much except when it comes to duration of battling off inactivity and hence weightgain. (what's the diff between hence and therefore anyway? someone said they're "cousin" words but i refused to believe)
well nothing much has happened anyway even if they have they're not really fit to be mentioned in a blog. that's why it's always so...esoteric. argh.
oh no...depression...go away!!!
wish i could be high and silly .. most of the time. well at least nowadays there's always something good to think about. =). damn.
ach! the aura! the regality! doesn't anyone else feel it? through certain incidents i've figured that .. "it's just me".
finally lagging in physics tutorials, the last 2 chapters. and mr wong's getting better, "weirdly". harhar but he's always so cool, so able to handle all that we throw at him. maths is alright, managed to rush ahead of the lesson on the last day (i never did that before. now why didn't i do that. it's no use to regret) and we're quite convinced that mrs lim is pregnant. reminded us of the good old days in rgs, sitting in class, finding class boring, and therefore focusing on our female teachers' physical conditions, looking out especially for any abdominal irregularities. mrs kwan! whom we had been suspecting for 9 months, that she was pregnant-_-. bio...sigh heck bio is....luan qi ba zao and lagging by 3 chapters.. chem! i'm at nitrogenous compounds, the last chapter, but somehow i just can't internalise the amides part! c'mon you're almost there, at the end of the (organic) tunnel.
the song that a senior sent me is really good, "Brief". i've always wondered how pple break up auf deutsch. there's my answer. pretty sniffly.=) "mit diesem Brief nimmt sie Abschied von mir"...."wei? nicht wie es weitergeht...kenne keinen Weg heraus".. (with this letter takes she leave from me. dont' know how it continues. know not a way out. ... how terribly unromantically translated.)
and i STILL highly recommend "iris" by the googoo dolls despite comments such as "so boring".
and once again i learn the lesson that if there's no chemistry. too bad, there's nothing you can do about it. and i dont' know, does the "have chemistry" thing come in a few categories? such as pseudo-chemistry which eventually fades, the nurtured-chemistry which comes later? of course i mean chemistry in all sorts of relationships, esp. friendships. are friendships only maintained by a constant flow of topics to talk about? sounds like it won't be able to last. so worrying.
oh i've been pretty happy in school. you know i used to hate the beginning of last year. suddenly your social circle expands, and the population of acquaintances density in the school was getting ever higher, and when you walk down the corridors next to lt 2 and 3 you encounter so many pple you know, (but that's it, only "know of") and you're obliged to wave and smile at them, that you get scared of walking down that corridor. =S. but it's much better this year...although at times i still dont' feel too enthusiastic about saying hi to most of the pple i meet. so ..tiring. but nevertheless i feel better this year, maybe it IS because i don't compel myself to say hi anymore. woohoo. way to go.
miss obs, was in bed and imagined myself in my basha on the 4th day, the solo day. imagined squeezing the mud under my groundsheet. =) was walking around with jovina on friday, walked to ghim moh with her (met who!!so oft some more. mind freezing.). harhar she's so...cute. she said she doesn't mind signing up for 21 days obs. but for that there's 3 (or 4) solo days. no way! i'm really scared of that. i managed to survive our one solo day by: not cooking and not going to the toilet-_- 3 days! wo pa!=P
can't believe my gp essay! "the preservation of integrity is the greatest good". i'm impressed by myself! either it was really pretty good, or something went wrong at mr khoo's side (who's in ireland with the band pple. IRELAND leh. !@#$!@%!$##!@$)
met jiayao at 10pm at buona vista mrt on friday night. he's going to cambridge, so fun. he was ploughing through his organic chem not long ago too.
met khoon kiat in school on saturday. took me a full second to realise that it was him, the someone had stood opposite, in green and a funny haircut (with hair starting to grow back out). he's pretty funny, just goes on about ns, which sounds really exciting. he's going to study computer engineering in cornell/carnegie mellon/nus. oh no i never knew he had some health problems which sound quite bad...
got a letter, a reply to my xmas card, from leeting, through shulin during ssef. i heard she got gold for ssef!=) i think its' the physics project she did, and she doesn't even take physics! she sounds really energetic, except a bit stressed. but she sounds like she's loving german, and i'd put her up as an example of "someone who did what her heart told her to do" anytime. she hasn't decided whether she's gonna study in germany.
komm zurück!!
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