f-ing pissed off.
all i'm gonna remember of summer is running errands x 10. half of my f-ing todo list is for other pple. just one too many.
breathe breathe.
you know, with some pple it's ok, regardless of whether you're awfully close to them or not. you don't feel like you've been made use of just because it's more convenient that way for them (even though it is less convenient for you of course). you feel like, the person really means he/she "appreciates it" (which they all say), and that you're really going out of your way to do this for them. if they could do anything about it, they would, and they have done all they can. you're their last resort.
i have always always felt that if you can help without going through much trouble (maybe just a bit of a hassle), let's say just drive down somewhere and run an errand for someone who really needs it, it doesn't cost me much time or effort and i'm more than happy to help. ju3 shou3 zhi1 lao2. really doesn't mean anything to me because it's so simple. i hope i don't lose this attitude, even though pple who are on the receiving end are beginning to adopt it as well, which is WRONG. it's wrong for a person being helped to think, geeeee it's so easily accomplished by her anyway; it's nothing much (go do it yourself). for me, personally, i think it's ok if one takes oneself for granted, but it is a sin for others to take one for granted.
but this isn't the worst. the worst is when you're victim of a purpose. i really hate that.. i really hate sugarcoated motives...(esp when it takes me a while to realize coz i'm so wols.)
let me continue this bitter post and say how bloody glad i am that some pple are out of my life: i am very glad. they have been a waste of my time and energy. luckily i didn't spend too much of my emotions on that. i have never met pple so simply and overwhelmingly RIDICULOUS.
posted by sunny @ 12:11
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