Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Shyh Chang says:
after a while, i realize biological science as a discipline has been nothing more than a haphazard collection of empirical facts, classified into categories based on relatively un-rigorous assumptions
Shyh Chang says:
yes, biology as a field, lacks the crystalline beauty of mathematics or physics.
Shyh Chang says:
Shyh Chang says:
its sheer complexity, which begs for clearer (mathematical?) understanding, is an intellectual challenge that makes up for this present imperfection!


harhar. midnight chats are so ...nice.

went out with emily on tuesday afternoon. we picked up (my) cert and yearbook from rj, pigged out in the basement of j8, and then watched "a lot like love". (amazing thing, hairstyles)

went to biopolis with tracy today. had lunch at moe with some of the attachment guys.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Robert Gardner
I suppose I should wish you success, but that is really easy. I would like to wish you something that is harder to come by. So I am going to wish you meaning in life. And meaning is not something you stumble across like the answer to a riddle or the prize in a treasure hunt. Meaning is something you build into your life. You build it out of your own past, out of your affections and loyalties, out of the experience of human kind as it is passed on to you; out of your own talent and understanding, out of things and people you love, out of the values for which you are willing to sacrifice something. The ingredients are there. You are the only one who can put them together into that unique pattern that will be your life. Let it be a life that has dignity and meaning for you. If it does, Then the particular balance of success or failure is of less account.

I finally found this.

obs was refreshing. maybe i've found what i've been needing.
(oh no, on a side note.)

Saturday, June 18, 2005

i'll be away at obs, 20th to 24th june.

i'm so worn, tired. i can't talk about it, and no one to talk to.
don't say anything.
"learn taciturnity and let that be your motto!" - robert burns.
"Learn to accept in silence the minor aggravations, cultivate the gift of taciturnity, and consume your own smoke with an extra draft of hard work, so that those about you may not be annoyed with the dust and soot of your complaints." - William Osler.

seabiscuit's pretty good so far. i seem to itch to own books that have a sufficient number of phrases/expressions that are worthy of ... immortality.

last weekend (11 & 12th), went to endau rompin with shifeng and her mom and her mom's colleagues. it was really nice (uh oh sounds exactly like desaru entry). i enjoyed the hiking, although i figured out towards the end that it would've been more enjoyable had i kept my mind occupied on sth. say an imaginary conversation or figuring out some problem or memorising something. we hiked forever to get to a waterfall and danach, a blue lagoon (photo on right). i enjoyed the boat ride the most. we saw elephant poo, plenty of it, along the trek. =S.
although it was a one-night stay, i got pretty used to the little 'merbau' hut by the next morning. and the insects crawling all over the floor. a great variety too. (i thought of serene. she would've screamed. no, she wouldn't have been there in the first place). surprisingly sweet sleep.
the next day we floated down the river in a canoe-raft.
the stars at night were good, but very limited field of view in the forest. oh yeah, i had to take a shower from a bucket. horrific, but what an experience. think i wasted alot of water. and the weather was bad. the weather was normal actually, it's so humid and hot, and so very conducive for sitting at the doorway and rotting your life away.
before long we were on our rickety way out of the nature reserve. i felt a little sad looking back at the neatly cropped border of the nature reserve as we left. a slight reluctance to return to reality.

so monday (13-170605, that's today!) on we had a whole week of predeparture courses. they're pretty nice, i enjoyed the mbti alot (ESTJ. outspoken And ruthless. but i'm only "slight" for ES and moderate for TJ, so no fear.), the activities and the speaker (was good). serenity in times of turmoil, she was like.
highlights were in the evenings.
tues, sagar arrived! met up with xiz first. good to see her. and sagar, a little taller, a little darker (or is it my poor memory), still an extremely indian accent harhar (or is it my poor hearing). i'm pretty surprised at how...normal i was. ah well, people grow up. hopefully.
wed, so in the evening went out with sagar, and his 'cousin' (his bro-in-law's cousin). we had ice kachang at cine, while waiting for xiz. we did manage to meet her in the end, before the sagar and his cousin went off for dinner with their family at serangoon. i sent xiz off, and hung around kino.
thurs. after predepart, went out with 11 others, impromptu, to lido to watch sth. in the end 9 of them watched batman and tianyi shifeng and i watched mr n mrs smith. was good i must say. so, glad i listened to xiz and went for it even though we were the minority. they're a pretty fine bunch of pple.
fri (170605), i finished slightly earlier, but still kept sagar his cousin and xiz waiting for a while. this was supposed to be real hang out day. we went ice skating. i enjoyed it, for the first time possibly. but still very unseasoned. then we went to suntec, sagar got his coloured contacts. then we went to the esplanade, merlion park..and home. sagar and his cousin going to KL (on saturday) for a while and cambodia after that. tempted to be envious.
so tired out today.

so yes, next mon to fri i'll be away. hope to take the chance to relax. go with the flow man.
happy 20th birthday, in advance.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

"we really ought to round up all the passengers," he said, "and ask each of them if they can tell us why they are living. Those who cannot answer we simply throw overboard."
"What about the children?" I asked.
"They pass the test with flying colours."

"Time doesn't pass, ..., and Time doesn't tick. We are the ones who pass, and our watches tick. Time eats its way through history as silently and relentlessly as the sun rises in the east and sets in the west. It topples great civilisations, gnaws at ancient monuments, and wolfs down generation after generation. That's why we speak of the 'ravages of time.' Time chews and chomps - and we are the ones between its jaws."

"It was the same with everything - with the whole world, I thought to myself. As long as we are children, we have the ability to experience things around us - but then we grow used to the world. To grow up is to get drunk on sensual experience."

"I sat thinking how terribly sad it was that people are made in such a way that they get used to something as extraordinary as living. One day we suddenly take the fact that we exist for granted - and then, yes, then we don't think about it any more until we are about to leave the world again."

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

i'm really confused. i can't decide whether i feel good or bad about the people around me, nor myself. i don't know what kinda person i wanna or should be. i'm not me.!
i'm scared=(. things should stay the same.

xu xu left yesterday morning. shifeng bena and i sent her off. i barely sent her off. =(.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

time to feel bad again. don't understand, it's been a happy day, should be a happy day. but inevitably a sense of. loneliness. maybe overdose of food.

went for the harmoc exchange thing at braddell heights. it was very nice. .... sorry i sound so sian right. but just that i have no other word in my vocabulary right now.
we sat through the whole concert (almost 3 hours) though grace teck tee and kitling's item was the 3rd. then grace kitling and i went out for dinner. jap. and we gossipped.
speaking of which. weili!! =(. oh no. it wasn't That kp what!! hmmph.

yesterday i went to east coast with eesang. but pc was not open although said it was open so we sat there and talked and waited and ate then we went to change coz we gave up but when we came out we saw boats coming back in darn. heheh no punctuation so fun. i feel like valerie, going all zonkie deep in the night. we went to town and watched madagascar together. it was magic how we both had that expectant look on our faces after i said "i really wanna watch..." and we both shouted, madagascar! and highfived.

so damn hilarious.
well, not the show. to tell the truth i got sick of laughing some parts in between, because it was so predictable. and very slapstick, literally. quality of humour is really dang. was hoping to see sth reminiscent of ... shrek/incredibles? but its ok, pretty fun show.

it's been so long.
i'm apprehensive. i don't know where i'm heading.
erzaehl mir.
and i think of all those pple who dont' seem to like me. don't know why. its just very occasional i think about this..but.
i know my friends will start comforting me, i know it's temporary. but sometimes you just need write it out.
wo bist du denn.! wenn du gebraucht bist.
hmm. must keep up the deutsch.

looking forward to sagar's visit. see if things have changed. in my recollection we understood one another well.

na jiu zhe yang ba! thank chenglim for such a nice song. improved taste eh.=)

next week will be busy. after that 2 weeks busy. there's no time for myself anymore.