segeln. ruhe. zwang

hallo! how's everyone! hallo ms cai! hallo ms thain!
there happy=)? no inspiration but i guess a couple of weeks' accumulation of info should be enough to write about.
ah and once i blog i can't stop. seems this way.


i'm in a much better mood.

ok i'm really bored. sorry for not blogging so long. look it's...err. 20+ days. i got nothing much to say. except exams are over....monday's getting back of results. =S...

well let's see...i've not updated this for very long....can't remember much. just that bio paper was..horrible (is it too light?)

well yesterday was open house, and i .. sorta gave it a miss? i woke up at 7am....got out of bed...and found myself stumbling around a few steps before getting to the door. so i informed authorities, that i was unable to make it, and really needed that sleep.


let's make this more systematic.

ok exam week....nothing interesting....started revising bio the night before=P ah well. -_- typical.
the sat, sun and monday after that was wonderful. i did absolutely NOthing. isn't that a wonderful feeling? well monday there was 3rd lang .. and we suddenly realised that our O level workshop was this saturday. so i started working on the notes. which were thankfully out by wed. (which also caused me to be 30 mins late for wed's lesson *horror*)
and i had to wait 10 minutes for dinner, and being dragged around. grrrrrrr.

and i'm wowed, because thurs i had an overseas audio conversation. that was. how amazing! (......)
so i shall hold more of that....especially when i found out all i had to do was plug the mic in. (and when pat asked me i told him i didn't think i could use it.. ok next time. but no more such slacking possible...after exams it seems like you just can't get anything done. i'm sure you agree, sereney)

ok cai says she likes seeing her name on blogs.=). so. she had fun guiding during open house. she got pink and purple (right?) braces. whoa man. which she flashed at me on wednesday.


so tues wed thurs i've slacked through as well...=)

friday. woohoo. holiday. movie day. lots of movies...like "the kid" (which i persuaded my parents to watch but kept .. informing them of what's gonna happen next. since i watched it=S i was in the middle of telling them "oh they're gonna come out of the tunnel and go back to the 60s now...") and "lagaan" which was quite. interesting. surprisingly the indian songs all made a lot of sense, although slightly eerie-sounding. but hey, dont' anyone say cricket's boring! i just didn't find the "bhuvan" very err. "lovable". everyone goes googoogaga over him.
ohohoh and "the gods must be crazy!", was really cute. bushman. clicking sounds. coke bottle that dropped from a plane and was unbroken. but it was really good, i liked the narration alot.


and oh wow the other american girl has msn now. and the other, i mean the other other, one was talking about college. sounded like a whole load of fun. coz i asked her about her "sociales Leben" (literally translated "social life" as you can tell)

i've been keeping myself happy this whole week, although several things have been trying to get me down. as i was walking home and . sorta. sulking. i thought about it....hey so what. i dont' give a damn. and find i could actually smile. =). so to any of you sad, whatever's happened happened, so just smile... it's the same as sulking...so why not do this instead. i know it's cliched..but it's really what i feel and it comes out like this...so i've been pretty happy about it, proud of myself, of being able to withstand. things. (and getting better at it=)) ah well at least here's something reflective to talk about.


well it upset me a little when i talk to pat nowadays....which is surprisingly rather often (no scandal honest.). he said i "don't tell him as much" which i realised was rather true. but he's so far, he doesn't know anything. and i don't feel good telling him stuff...and now that there seems to be less of .. common topics. well i grew out of a generation gap, so maybe i'm growing into another one. yeah which could be the case, since he's working away and...well. yeah. and argh.
and i've only seen cousin once. all so distant now. i knew it was just a .. "moment of passion" (=S). it's like that for me. things come and go. seems so overwhelming in a moment, and the next (ok one year) i feel nothing at all.
but it's not that i don't wanna....it's not exactly conducive to tell him things. "ok lunchtime byebye!" and i spend most of my time telling him what's a better way of expressing his idea in english. i really hate the internet sometimes, everyone's so different on it. at least, very few are like what i know of them in person. i hope pple think i'm exactly the way i am online and in person.


harhar i'm beginning to worry about obs. i'm scared. i won't mind paddling around and around and around the island but i wouldn't if they ask me to jump from 10 m off the floor. NEVER knew my the motor nerves in my legs were so extensive.


let's talk about german. only ... 15? more days to go. a few more lessons n i never have travel to bishan twice a week again. (awwwwwwww =~. paiseh.) well i'm gonna miss the exposure. but sure could still keep in touch with herr w, but he'd be busy with his new AOs. ok tomorrow's the course...rather exciting. but somehow i'm imagining little picky sec 4 kids challenging us...so better safe than sorry, i'm currently arming my set of notes with all the possible info to counter any attacks. *triumphant* i feel like sereney. so tomorrow's all cool, will enjoy getting to know lil ones. =))))) lil. extreme boredom. rambling. i got nothing philosophical to share. lar.
so, tomorrow afternoon, pw. well will enjoy being pawed by bobo, andy's lovely scottish terrier. or i think she's a scot. hm. she kept chewing chris and me up. i mean. our hands. but it was alot of fun, just i was a little worried aobut the drool on my .. everywhere. but she's really sweet.


hey i'm learning to cope. every day.
it's been amazing.

posted by sunny @ 11:59 0comments

hallo! how's everyone! hallo ms cai! hallo ms thain!
there happy=)? no inspiration but i guess a couple of weeks' accumulation of info should be enough to write about.

i'm in a much better mood.

ok i'm really bored. sorry for not blogging so long. look it's...err. 20+ days. i got nothing much to say. except exams are over....monday's getting back of results. =S...

well let's see...i've not updated this nor my diary for very long....can't remember much. just that bio paper was..horrible (is it too light?)

well yesterday was open house, and i .. sorta gave it a miss? i woke up at 7am....got out of bed...and found myself stumbling around a few steps before getting to the door. so i informed authorities, that i was unable to make it, and really needed that sleep.


let's make this more systematic.

ok exam week....nothing interesting....started revising bio the night before=P ah well. -_- typical.
the sat, sun and monday after that was wonderful. i did absolutely NOthing. isn't that a wonderful feeling? well monday there was 3rd lang .. and we suddenly realised that our O level workshop was this saturday. so i started working on the notes. which were thankfully out by wed. (which also caused me to be 30 mins late for wed's lesson *horror*)
and i had to wait 10 minutes for dinner, and being dragged around. grrrrrrr.

and i'm wowed, because thurs i had an audio conversation with someone overseas, that was. how amazing! (......)
so i shall hold more of that....especially when i found out all i had to do was plug the mic in. (and when pat asked me i told him i didn't think i could use it.. ok next time. but no more such slacking possible...after exams it seems like you just can't get anything done. i'm sure you agree, sereney)

ok cai says she likes seeing her name on blogs.=). so. she had fun guiding during open house. she got pink and purple (right?) braces. whoa man. which she flashed at me on wednesday.



so tues wed thurs i've slacked through as well...

friday. woohoo. holiday. movie day. lots of movies...like "the kid" (which i persuaded my parents to watch but kept .. informing them of what's gonna happen next. since i watched it=S i was in the middle of telling them "oh they're gonna come out of the tunnel and go back to the 60s now...") and "lagaan" which was quite. interesting. surprisingly the indian songs all made a lot of sense, although slightly eerie-sounding. but hey, dont' anyone say cricket's boring!


and oh wow the other american girl has msn now. and the other, i mean the other other, one was talking about college. sounded like a whole load of fun. coz i asked her about her "sociales Leben" (literally translated "social life" as you can tell)

i've been keeping myself happy this whole week, although several things have been trying to get me down. as i was walking home and . sorta. sulking. i thought about it....hey so what. i dont' give a damn. and find i could actually smile. =). so to any of you sad, whatever's happened happened, so just smile... it's the same as sulking...so why not do this instead. i know it's cliched..but it's really what i feel and it comes out like this...so i've been pretty happy about it, proud of myself, of being able to withstand. things. (and getting better at it=)) ah well at least here's something reflective to talk about.

well it upset me a little when i talk to pat nowadays....which is surprisingly rather often (no scandal honest.). he said i "don't tell him as much" which i realised was rather true. but he's so far, he doesn't know anything. and i don't feel good telling him stuff...and now that there seems to be less of .. common topics. well i grew out of a generation gap, so maybe i'm growing into another one. yeah which could be the case, since he's working away and...well. yeah. and argh.
and i've only seen cousin once. all so distant now. i knew it was just a .. "moment of passion" (=S). it's like that for me. things come and go. seems so overwhelming in a moment, and the next (ok one year) i feel nothing at all.


harhar i'm beginning to worry about obs. i'm scared. i won't mind paddling around and around and around the island but i would if they ask me to jump from 10 m off the floor. NEVER knew my the motor nerves in my legs were so extensive.

hey i'm learning to cope. every day. =(..........

posted by sunny @ 11:46 0comments

i am afraid.
my limits are constantly being pushed nowadays. my limit of tolerance and patience, my limit of capabilities, and worst of all, my limit of being a true person and holding on to my principles. which, not to make things better, are evading my search for them.
i'm afraid, that this is all i have to offer. oder?

it's been a bad day, funny how i felt that it would be from the moment the lrt was delayed. i thought that breakfast with cai at mac's was gonna make it all better, but an uncanny feeling followed...
well my day wasn't dramatic, but it was enough. it's sad how often i feel empty and sit back and look at everything, feeling like i'm on the outside of it all. but sometimes it's good. i learned lots of things...

don't criticise (not that anyone has. i hope) me for this blog's lack of depth or explicitness.


Dostojewski, as recommended by herr w, is a tremendously dark writer. he says not to read it when you're down, it'll really make you think about suicide. i quote, "he ken reelly damage your mentle healthss"=)



Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.
Mother Teresa

posted by sunny @ 09:12 0comments